Rainny

So here is where I pen my shit
Knowing damn well 
That this ain’t it
It’s fucking dirty and pretty crude
Polite at times yet mostly rude
I never asked you 
So I don’t care
About those thoughts 
You seem to bare
On this branch 
I shall reside
Behind a leaf 
Is where I hide
My elusiveness is all I know
I’m down about now 
But up I’ll go
Again and again I read it n’ weep
Wiping my ass with tea bags steeped
Piercing flesh with a jagged blade
Memories forgotten yet never fade
I’m just some bitch who’s sittin’ here
Pondering my thoughts 
Sippin’ on fear
A drink of tomorrow I’ve never ingested
Empty pockets of much time invested
Back I am with quixotic dreams
All of which come true…it seems
Steppin’ back to fully feel
Renoir’s strokes of colors real
Each piece I view like shades of me
Cobalt dandelions and ebony
So here it is
Where I pen my thoughts
Here it is 
The words I fought
But out it lashes like dirty shoes
Kickin’ my vag like singin’ the blues
Whiney I am and fucked I shall stay
Being dealt the many hands that I play
You don’t know me 
And y’ never will
For I’m that nasty fuckin’ pill
The one your hastily addicted to
Sensation of one but mostly two
So swallow my sweat 
And drink my tears
Because I’ve nothing left to fear
Blink your eyes and count to eight
Why eight you say as your forsake
Your own personality for others to take
Nothing you own is really quite yours
You’ve taken from me
Like a pimp to his whore
Bend me over and call me silly
But blogs are funny n’ super frilly
Dressed up words in lacy curtains
Uploaded pix and words so uncertain
Be sure of what you think is real
Eat a banana and slip on the peel
I’ll laugh at you and write shit up
Just because I don’t give a fuck!!